MOODSWING.

i didnt want you t see so i put my blog as privert .. as i know that u will scold me again .
 th past .. maybe ur past really bothers my alot .  what u can give them . what i hav from u if less than 20 percent . 

also i geh pahlan . why do i go activate it again ? eneded up tearing here myself .
last time thought pnly east coast beach got u and her memorize .
so i thought diao bear bear part will be u & me . first thing i got that bear bear i say " this will be our son"  i still remember how happy am i .   ke shi dou shi ren jia yi qian suo yong you de .  ur blog said that part which i didnt read in th past . she said e same thing as what i said . u caught e same bear for her . at e same place .  i dont like taking people old stuff . & i swear . nomatter what . i wouldnt be going east coast park ever again .  i'll throw away that rilakuma that i spend 70 dollars on for u t diao for me .  i will throw away that tiger that i gave you . i will delete that blog that i helped u created . 



 boy . i'm sorry that i'm not a good girlfriend . i dont hav a good family background . 
i'm stupid . i gave up on studies in e past cause nomatter how hard i try . it still cant work out .
i'm sorry that i'm a smoker . a drinker . a kuku who doent even know what should she do e next step.  a person who loves fun . a person who's lack of sence of secure . felt lost easily , not independent like others . i'm weak . 

i'm sorry that i cant fucking be like that even if i fucking tried. i tried . i really , really cant be like that . 

*sorry i cant give u th sence of secure u always wanted . - but i really tried my best , i didnt  contact guys.i dont even go out till late at night for a period of time . 

*sorry i cant be as as pretty as them , th one who u can proudly bring out and intro her t ur friends -  i'm sorry that i'm born this way, short, and xmm. i'll try putting on makeups and wear heels from nao on . t look mature . so that u can proudly bring me out and intro me t ur friends 

*sorry i'm not as sweet as other girls which can make u so happy only because she went ur house . and some other things - but i did try . but all those things i wanted t do, was all th thing's she've once given you . even cards that i gave u . you dont even like it .. i've tried hard. but i really dont know what t do next alr .  

*sorry that i'm stupid. i cant study. maybe th fact that i dont like studying. i cant be like them . much smarter, brighter. - but i tried too . but you'll never know how it's like t be me . without friends & everyone doesnt like you including e teachers . 

*i'm sorry i'm a smoker , a drinker. a girl who goes drinking late at night , a girl who likes getting drunk. - i'm born in a smoker family . i smoke just t try'na fit in . i dont feel like quiting . i dont know why .u dint know my full storey . u didnt even try'na understand me more . but i've tried telling u my past , u wudnt listen.. 

*i'm sorry that i'm just some idiots that doesnt know what t do where t go . i'm always behind somebody . cause i cant be e leader . i'm stupid . i cant . - it tried . but once you're not with me . my mind always turn out black . dont know what t do . 

*& i'm sorry i cant give you e sence of secure that she gave you . even if i've tried a hundred times . i would be able t do it .    SORRY.  i'm just a random girl u can find in e streets . i'm nothing special . you're too good t be mine . ):  i wouldnt ask u t do things you dont like , example, looking at my blog . asking u t bring me out some where t slack . or even ask u t do anystuff .

 i wont ...  sometimes even if i tried so hard, nothing will change . cause i'm maybe just like a rubbish t you . lan ping gua . a lousy girlfriend . that is lousy in every single thing .   i''m sorry . and i promised i wont disturb u anymore ):