hais. i'm having a bad moodswing . about th bearbear ? about how u treat her. it's a complete difference .
"all i wanna say is i'm sorry.. deardear i know you dont like me to be like tt.. i will change, i dont know why tis few months why i become like tt.. i have no idea why my temper will become so fuck up.. now i onlie know.. Deardear I Love You More And More.. I dont wanna lose you.. deardear dont leave me kz.. i promise i will change my tamper de.. [Laopo wo ai ni]<33"
that's what u said. u didnt ever said any sweet things t me before this 10 months . u attitude . whatever crap. i tolerate.

hais. 10 months...
am i really that bad ? i know i'm not good in studies. not good in words. i'm not pretty. haiis.
but i really do love you . ):
baby. what can i do t make u love me more ? ):

i'm sorry

maybe it's fated . i dont know .
we'll always quarrel .
whenever it's your fault . you'll find other things t say me ...
your charector will never change . hurting words that you said hur ?

maybe t you . i'm really just a useless crazy cbk girlfriend to you ehy..
what's wrong of me being angry ?
you'll be going in for sol in one days time . for a month . you'll rather accompany your friends rather than accompanying me . it's okay . u promised that you'll be here at 11+. you reached at 1 aM . why cant i be angry ?
u went down . dont even bother replying my text . ofc u didnt knew i went out .
i dont want t be the one who always do e first stop anymore . it's tiring y'know ?
oh , i forgot . you'll never understand .

your words were effin hurting .
you asked me not t stay at ur house anymore . u said everything's my own problem alr .
u said i'm a cbk . and said alot of hurting words . then , what do u expect me t reply u ?
i'm in a devastating mood.

u said me and ur friend were very competible . so what ?
what i care u if .

i dont know what t say t you nao . and i know i shouldnt speak a single word .
cause i'm afraid of being shouted by u again .

maybe i should really pack my things and go home . since u dont like seeing me so much .
i know i'm just a burden t you . you said this t me before .
i dont wanna be your burden . but i dont wanna end this relationship too .

i really dont know what t do . 11:11 aint coming true anymore . what i wished just nao didnt came true . and e opp. juat happen...

i wanna sleep nao . and i hope everything's settle when i wakeup ):

wang weiqiang . i love you alot . i really do .

MOODSWING.

i didnt want you t see so i put my blog as privert .. as i know that u will scold me again .
 th past .. maybe ur past really bothers my alot .  what u can give them . what i hav from u if less than 20 percent . 

also i geh pahlan . why do i go activate it again ? eneded up tearing here myself .
last time thought pnly east coast beach got u and her memorize .
so i thought diao bear bear part will be u & me . first thing i got that bear bear i say " this will be our son"  i still remember how happy am i .   ke shi dou shi ren jia yi qian suo yong you de .  ur blog said that part which i didnt read in th past . she said e same thing as what i said . u caught e same bear for her . at e same place .  i dont like taking people old stuff . & i swear . nomatter what . i wouldnt be going east coast park ever again .  i'll throw away that rilakuma that i spend 70 dollars on for u t diao for me .  i will throw away that tiger that i gave you . i will delete that blog that i helped u created . 



 boy . i'm sorry that i'm not a good girlfriend . i dont hav a good family background . 
i'm stupid . i gave up on studies in e past cause nomatter how hard i try . it still cant work out .
i'm sorry that i'm a smoker . a drinker . a kuku who doent even know what should she do e next step.  a person who loves fun . a person who's lack of sence of secure . felt lost easily , not independent like others . i'm weak . 

i'm sorry that i cant fucking be like that even if i fucking tried. i tried . i really , really cant be like that . 

*sorry i cant give u th sence of secure u always wanted . - but i really tried my best , i didnt  contact guys.i dont even go out till late at night for a period of time . 

*sorry i cant be as as pretty as them , th one who u can proudly bring out and intro her t ur friends -  i'm sorry that i'm born this way, short, and xmm. i'll try putting on makeups and wear heels from nao on . t look mature . so that u can proudly bring me out and intro me t ur friends 

*sorry i'm not as sweet as other girls which can make u so happy only because she went ur house . and some other things - but i did try . but all those things i wanted t do, was all th thing's she've once given you . even cards that i gave u . you dont even like it .. i've tried hard. but i really dont know what t do next alr .  

*sorry that i'm stupid. i cant study. maybe th fact that i dont like studying. i cant be like them . much smarter, brighter. - but i tried too . but you'll never know how it's like t be me . without friends & everyone doesnt like you including e teachers . 

*i'm sorry i'm a smoker , a drinker. a girl who goes drinking late at night , a girl who likes getting drunk. - i'm born in a smoker family . i smoke just t try'na fit in . i dont feel like quiting . i dont know why .u dint know my full storey . u didnt even try'na understand me more . but i've tried telling u my past , u wudnt listen.. 

*i'm sorry that i'm just some idiots that doesnt know what t do where t go . i'm always behind somebody . cause i cant be e leader . i'm stupid . i cant . - it tried . but once you're not with me . my mind always turn out black . dont know what t do . 

*& i'm sorry i cant give you e sence of secure that she gave you . even if i've tried a hundred times . i would be able t do it .    SORRY.  i'm just a random girl u can find in e streets . i'm nothing special . you're too good t be mine . ):  i wouldnt ask u t do things you dont like , example, looking at my blog . asking u t bring me out some where t slack . or even ask u t do anystuff .

 i wont ...  sometimes even if i tried so hard, nothing will change . cause i'm maybe just like a rubbish t you . lan ping gua . a lousy girlfriend . that is lousy in every single thing .   i''m sorry . and i promised i wont disturb u anymore ):  

Day 20 - the one that broke your heart the hardest.

i dont know . my last clique ? i think so .

my mood we'rnt good these days . hav a very bad urge of drinking .
sist drank vodka with me <3
THANKS .
things's we'rnt working out fine recently . dont feel like elaborating them here . sighs .

& i just noticed that i hav a totally heartless brother . -.- and only know how t think of himself . wdh sia .
so what u know how t study . dai sai meh ? so what papa care u more . u think i care ??
stupid money face brother .
dulan die me .

Day 19 - someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

obviously. it's my boyfr.
nomatter bad memorize or e good ones...


didnt go t sch for a period of time. think so far jiu sian dw go lerh.
hais. SIAN. once again. i feel lyk dropping out of sch again.
waste of time being in sch doing nothing . teacher teachh also dont understand. in sch also bo friend. so far some more . watse money watse time .
rather study privert. -.-



WANG WEIQIANG

me and my boyfr's r/s started drifting off and i dont know why . my boyfr's acting abit weird nao . and i feel very insecure somehow .
your changes. too bug for me which gave me e feeling of insecurity.
but it's okay. but whatever it is.
please tell me e truth. i dont wanna be e second miki . that u flirt behind her back and just treat her likka sex toy. though u all tgt one year one week. but u also no feelings for her ? LOL. okay. so if ur feeling fade . than it's okay if u leave cause i dont wanna be like her okay ? <3


(L) KYLIE PANDORA A.K.A MIKO- DOLLDOLL (L)
recently she's e only one who kept me accompanied.
it's funny thinking back how we knew each other and how we got close tgt <3
it's hard t find someone who can talk about everything. even th iner part of our life. it's kinda coinsidence how our boyfr is alike. PMS-.- AHAHHA.
thanks sist. ^^

 

 

Day 18 - the person that you wish you could be.

hmm. i dont wish t be anyone. just wanna be myslef..


sorry for not updateting .
busy ~
recently there's alot of bithches around -.- kah jiaoweh here and there -.-
what's so fun about kah-ying jiaoweh ? -.- what centery riao ? say it in my face lurh . LOL. go back and study instead of creating trouble here and there .
nao is talk about money. not ahbeng ahlian -.-
nao no cert no money. what can u do without money naoadays ?
being a hooligan cant earn u any money (:
so yahh ^^ gooluck t yyouh kae ?

yeah, recently didnt do anything special .
went pub/ktv with dear, rongjun, wei sheng, zhengge korkorh, gibson & yau teck ^^
and we went drink drank drunk ~
hao lah!, let e pictures do e talking.
ohyah! & thanks gibson ! ^^

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i love you babe <3 TEEHEE ! :D

u also know how t say ren shi hui bian derh ?
u urself also changed . fuckedup , seriously . i hate you . i hate nao de you . i hate ur this fuckedup starkedup personality derh you . nbcb. fuck . i hate it . i just hate you . fuck . u last time also not like derh .fucking sol come out jitao change t another person . nbcb .
i bo weh gong

DAY 17, SOMEONE FROM UR CHILDHOOD.

he's darren tay. i knew him for 7 years alr.. is this considered as childhood friend?


currenly at my boyfr's house. and i'm SUPER BORED.
cause my boyfr aint talking t me. likka sian only.
sian. I WANT GO OUT. D:


KAREN.
I MISS YOU ALOT Y'KNOW ?!
U LIKKA BUSY ONLY NOR !! find time meetup okay ?
not at hougang. maybe around ur house area ? (:
anw, SERIOUSLY. MEETUP SOON OKAY !
wo hen xiang ni. <3 CALLMECALLME . TEXTME ALSO CAN ^^

HAIS

skiped sch today . LOL .
nao currently my tpx korh is with us .
and i fucking hate it when my boyfr watches pornography.
sharing it with his friends somemore .
i'm super pissed . and i dont know what t say .
i hate being left out too. i'm alone rotting for like 2-3 hours alr . nbcb

Day 16 - someone that’s not in your state/country.

idk ? my cousin , she's living in USA . didnt see her for quite some time alr ...

there's alot things i'm thinking about , doubting , but what can i do ?
bu guan zhen mo yang , ru gou yao fa shen , hai shi yao fa shen de .
hais .
i want t think positively . but i can't ):
hais. u book out from sol . total different person. maybe i really thinking too much . but forget it .
having mood swings . bye .