After I did so many things for you. You still don't get enough . When will you know how t cherish me ?
I'm always doing things for you . Yet I don't feel appreciated . Why ?
Why do u always wanna make me feel so disappointed . Seeing me tear, does that make u feel any btr ? ....
I've treated you good . But why ?
It's just that I'm not born with a good family background and I'm not in a wealthy family . But why? Why so big difference ? Why ? I don't understand . Why....

It's never like th same before .
Is this called karma ? Why does it strikes all Tgt ? And on my relationship?
I've done nth wrong . I love you . But all I get is betrayal .
Hate , yet love . This feeling. No one could understand ...

Why? Why must u treat me this way....


Did u ever felt lost ? Again. I'm feeling lost. Friends ? What are they?
They'll only appear when they nid help, or bored t death .
I'm alone again.... 想哭，但哭不出。想笑也笑不出。想到你我快要疯了。

I kinda miss our pass. Do you? 

Sometimes , I don't talk abt it anymore doesn't mean I don't think about it anymore or it doesn't matter anymore .
It still matters alot... Just that I didn't say it out that's all.
Each time I suddenly think of th things you've done . My heart aches like never before . I still doubt myself of what I've told you is e right thing t do.
Tho I know even I I've tell you that it still matters , it wouldn't make a difference . I'm giving u th things that you want, th freedom you've wanted . And see if things would change . But I'm not sure if me myself could take it. Still. I don't have faith in you. And each tine you've done something that hav made me upset, I've got used to it . Is this something good?

I'm unasure if what I'm doing will help this relationship keep going and me myself will be comfortable with it.
I'm giving it a try and I hope it'll help.
I know I wouldn't like it. Or maybe end up with a cut in my heart. I really don't know . But I hope It won't hurt so much. I love you. But do you still. Having much thoughts in my mind again. I bid time t clear my doubts . I nid time t think about what I should do next. I nid time t make myself won't get hurt so much. I hope I could Get th fuck over it . I hate having complicated feelings that I'm having now. Always feeling down yet couldn't be shown . sighs

在你怀里的微笑

Went to reborn my hair last night. Poor baby hav to wait for me so long :x but he was enjoying himself looking at girls too :3 HAHAHA.
Though I don't know what's wrong with you these days, but , I'm still loving you. Sorry for my poor attitude these days. I was just afraid of history will be repeated again. Sorry babe 

Th reborn service was damn fucked up -.- I hate it . Gosh. Hahah , okay nvm. Darling is still sleeping likka pig nao. Ohmygosh. 
Sweetdreams :3 

13th month anniversary .

You're in camp. You're gonna bookout ltr. Your phone is not even able to get thru. -.- sian. There's alot of things I've been thinking which makes me pissed off .
In th past. Monthsary means alot to me. But u tell me "MONTHSARY NIA. WHAT'S TH BIG FUSS OVER IT"
So yea, I've get over it . Monthsary nia, what's th big fuss over it? -.- okay...