I kinda miss our pass. Do you? 

Sometimes , I don't talk abt it anymore doesn't mean I don't think about it anymore or it doesn't matter anymore .
It still matters alot... Just that I didn't say it out that's all.
Each time I suddenly think of th things you've done . My heart aches like never before . I still doubt myself of what I've told you is e right thing t do.
Tho I know even I I've tell you that it still matters , it wouldn't make a difference . I'm giving u th things that you want, th freedom you've wanted . And see if things would change . But I'm not sure if me myself could take it. Still. I don't have faith in you. And each tine you've done something that hav made me upset, I've got used to it . Is this something good?

I'm unasure if what I'm doing will help this relationship keep going and me myself will be comfortable with it.
I'm giving it a try and I hope it'll help.
I know I wouldn't like it. Or maybe end up with a cut in my heart. I really don't know . But I hope It won't hurt so much. I love you. But do you still. Having much thoughts in my mind again. I bid time t clear my doubts . I nid time t think about what I should do next. I nid time t make myself won't get hurt so much. I hope I could Get th fuck over it . I hate having complicated feelings that I'm having now. Always feeling down yet couldn't be shown . sighs