sighs

dead tired... but yet. i'm still awake...
nao i  know. this is how you treat your friends.... this is how important your friends are to you.
your friends treats you so good. and this is how you treat them ?
you must be grateful you have them...

recently. i dont know what the fuck is happening to you .  i'm tired .. really ..
your words are fucking awfull till i feel like slapping you and just leave.
but i cant you asshole. why ? fuckyou .
i know i'm till my limits already ... please ... not again... just one last time and i swear i'll leave . i'm okay to have nothing at all.
it's not that it never happened before... i have a home too . i have a heart, i'm a human okay. it's just that  i've choose to stay with you . and you wanted it isnt it ?
i can go home. i can go work myself. and if you want to . i can support myself since i'm working nao...
like this . you wouldnt have anything to say bout me ... i owe you . is cos i'm staying at your place... i owe you cos in the past , you didnt allow me to work and you have to pay for my expenses .
i know i owe you . i can apologize. if you think i'm too much for that ... then i can go home . i dont mind.

i'm very tired nao . but yet your words you've told me just now. i'm not able to sleep beside you  . and your attitude. i know i'll surely get hurt by you . idw to get wounds anymore....
cant be in jie room cos she wanted to sleep . i'm in the living room and i'm super sleepy. yet i coundnt sleep. have to work in the morning shift later, hesitating to go work anot......

sometimes i'm thinking ... i'm just 16 ... i wanna lead a life that every 16 year old is having now. to have some fun. nothing to think about . just enjoy life... everyone of u all have went through my age. why couldnt you all understand ?

y'know ? u've alr moved on the the pther stage already... but i'm not ready yet... i'm still young. i want to have fun.. cant you understand? i lil freedom... a lil care, a lil attention.. that's all.... is it that hard?
it's not like i'm gonna go fucking around ?

i'm afraid now i couldnt take your attitude anymore... once i couldnt... idk what i'll do... hope you know what to do ... these days... everyday wo guo de hen bu kuai le... nomatter at work, friends or with you.... i'm tired alreadyy ,, i've pulled through so long idk how long more i could take...

我爱你。

Started in my working life not long ... FUCKEDUP colleague -.-
Very tired .. But I've noticed that work can actually distract me alot .
I've noticed I've not been emo-ing ever sinced I've started work.
Though it's very tiring . But it's worth it I guess ..
Baobei ... Don't know why but I feel you swaying further from me each day.. Seemed so far .. Trying to get back the feeling .. But I can't seemed to get back that feeling .
Dreamt of you falling for another girl today.. I'm afraid that it might happen .. I cannot lose you. I really cannot lose you .. Idk why.. Sorry that I'm relying on you so much. But without you. It seems nothing alr ... Hais...
Caught a picture with you today. It's been a long time ever since we took a picture ...

Recently you Hav much family problem... I know you are very upset cos of this.. I'm sorry I can't do anything to help. I really hope I can do something bout it . But I can't .. I'm sorry ...

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Currently at clementi party world nao... Everyone is enjoying . But I can't seem to pull up my mood ....
I know you're hiding something from me ...
I hope you won't put me into disappointment again... I'm really afraid of that feeling .
You said you will change de .. You promised de ...
Please for this time jiu Hao ... You broke EVERY promise you've given .. Please don't break it this time ....
Read thru things you've told me in TH past..
Idk what to say alr .... Lost...