day 9 : someone u sont wish t talk as much as u like to

lemme think first ...


relationship.
thing we'rnt working out fine recently .
i dont feel happy after all.
last night went went west coast.
all related t last night.
i dont feel happy .
today is th second time i've cried alr.
and i just noticed that crying silently and trying not t let u know hurts even more than just crying.

cause i know that if u knowed i cry. i'll hurt even more.

i was damn pissed off.
i mean why were u helping other people talk. instead of me ? i mean . everytime this happens. it's all ur ex related .

i dont feel like i'm attaached anymore .
other than hugs and kisses u gave me . i feel that we were just normal friends .
i know i'm always alone . nomatter attached or not .
everything just dont work out th right way .

11:11 doeesnt work out anymore .
i dont feel happy at all..

i'm just like, living YOUR life and not our's . shouldnt a relationship include both of us and not just one of them ? i dont understand .
why ? u make decision without telling me, yet i hav t follow u ?
and why not i make decisions and u follow me ?

i'm sick and tired of life and how i wished i could end everything nao.
it just hurt so much .
idw thing's t repeat like my past relationship.

but we're goinging t that way .

talking t you wont work out cause u wouldnt listen and u think that everything you've done is right .
you only want t go your way . that's why .

i dont know hat t do nao .
disappointed , pissed and sad nao .
i think it's time for us t be alone for a night or two .
t cool down and start everything afresh .

i'm really lost nao. and who knows ? no one could help . i'm alone nao again. dont know what's th next step. this feeling's so fucked up .
i really dont know what t do . i really dont know ...