DAY 15. SOMEONE YOU MISS E MOST.

SOMEONE I MISS E MOST.
WANGWEIQIANG.
my boyfr.
i didnt see him for like . 11 days alr. though it's maybe not really long . but two weeks really tourtures me alot ):
u lah . ask u dont gamble still gamble . stupid .
i miss you . hais.



life .
it sucks .
nao i know that there isnt any REAL friends in life .
i gave up.
on a 8 month close friend i had. though that's not long . but compared t a half day friend ? u choose her . wjmk ?
i mean . u knew that i we'rnt in th wrong. but why ? why are u doing this . and u peng so many weh . i didnt ever thought that u will do this . my heartaches . u were my only close friend besides vernice . my daddy. but why ?

and for my boyfr . u and him 9 years alr . u choose that half day friend. u know what if gekxim ?
i'm so disappointed in you . go on bah . without friends . i still can survive.


baby . i know ue heart very pain. but u didnt tell me . but i can feel it.
nao i understand why you always tell me t not, believe in anyone . even e one closest t you . thanks babe . for everything . and thanks for being there for me when i really needed you .
i've learnt my lesson . that nomatter what happens . you're still e only one there for me . you're like my papa , my korkor , my nanny & my perfect boyfriend . TEEHEE.

counting down on our 9th month ! ^^ cant wait ! must take alotalot pictureeeesss ohkehhh ?! *MWACKS*

Day 14 - someone you’ve drifted away from.

someone i've drift away from ?
my boyfriend.
we aint that close anymore . quarreling ever single day . over th very small things . i dont know what t do . sighs .
telll me what t do will you ?
i'm sick ):
and u dont even care . not even a word of concern ):
imy .

DARLING I'M SORRY & ILLUVYOUH.):

baby. i'm sorry ...
sorry for being sucha failed girlfriend .
you're my so called first serious relationship.
i dont know what t do when i encounter problems with you . i dont know how t talk things out .
i dont know how t control my temper.
i'm sorry.
sorry for always being a cry baby . when i get anger or sad . i dont know what t say and i'll cry .
i'm sorry .
for not giving you th sence of secure you always wanted .
sorry . i'll try my best t do it.
i'll go home straight everyday after school. no more slacking .
no more contacting of friends whom u think they are not good . i will listen t you .
i promise i will make u gain back my trust .

but this time . i dint do anything ):
is u dont trust me ):
hais . i thought today can haohao pei you . bud endup also cant ):

baby . you're going in soon. i hope we can really spend time tgt and not quarrel. for this 3 day jiu hao. okay ?):

sometimes . i really hope u can tell me everything u feel and think inside . like what you always did in th past . it makes me feel secure . and makes me even more confirm that i'm impt. t you .

babe. you're really impt. t me . i cannot lose you ):
i really love you.
i'm sorry for being sucha failed girlfriend .
i will try t be like THEM . make u hav th sence of secure . trust .):
i'm sorry ):

hope u can ti liang me, for being sucha bad girlfr . ):


what i can say is sorry. what i can do is wait. and what i can prove is time. i'm sorry and i'll wait, time proves everything.

my 11:11. each time i wish for.. it's all about you ...

DAY 13 ; SOMEONE YOU WISH YOU COULD FORGIVE.

i wish i could forgive ?
no one actually -.- AHAHAH

well. today i was late for school :x. had breakfast with vernice (:
class was boring as usual.
except for MATH. i really cracked my brain -.-
for th first time i feel that i'm serious learning math in school :x AHAHAH

quarreled with boyfriend today ):
i'm sowiie ):

after school went for my haircut =3 HEEH with vernice again
(:


not much of difference right ? O.o

















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this one look better right ? (:


















tmrw gonaa go meet boyfr (:
FINALLY. HE'S BOOKING OUT !!! :DDDD IMISSHYM ):
hao lah, pic's time ! :DDD



he's tall right ? -.-

Day 12 - the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.

well. i dont really hate anyone nao .. so yea ?


i'm currently at my boyfr's house . he just booked in and got case ..
i hope nothing will happen t him. *pray hard.

these days didnt hav time t spend tgt . u seemd like you're avoiding something ?
i just want t hav a h2h talk w/ you ...
i've tried alot of times . bud i didnt had a chhance to.
u didnt gave me a chance . t talk things out.

there's alot i want t say . but i'm not gonna elaborate much here . i'm trying t settle down alr . putting everything aside . i hope things work out . /(:


babe, i hope nothing will happen t you . i luv you babe.

Day 11: let's skip this subject (:

Okay , actually . I also don't know what e subject means so forget it (:

Babe . I think through alot this night .
I've decided t let u go th way u wanted . I don't wanna restrict you anymore . Maybe gie u more freedom . Like letting u meet ur ex girlfriend alone .
Cause ... Idk how t say it here .
And babe . I'll try my best t change my bloody attitude .
I'm gonna try accepting ur friends/ex girlfriends. Even though I don't like them . But for ur sake . I'll try my best .

There still loads more t say t you . But I'm not gonna elaborate right nao . I'll save it for our date on sat night 
I'm looking forward for it . Are youh ?
Let's hav our h2h talk there .
I'll pray t god hoping that nothing will goes wrong tmrw okay ? I love you (;
Off t bed . Nao it's 225 am . I hav t wakeup at 5 :x
So nights peeps (;

day 9 : someone u sont wish t talk as much as u like to

lemme think first ...


relationship.
thing we'rnt working out fine recently .
i dont feel happy after all.
last night went went west coast.
all related t last night.
i dont feel happy .
today is th second time i've cried alr.
and i just noticed that crying silently and trying not t let u know hurts even more than just crying.

cause i know that if u knowed i cry. i'll hurt even more.

i was damn pissed off.
i mean why were u helping other people talk. instead of me ? i mean . everytime this happens. it's all ur ex related .

i dont feel like i'm attaached anymore .
other than hugs and kisses u gave me . i feel that we were just normal friends .
i know i'm always alone . nomatter attached or not .
everything just dont work out th right way .

11:11 doeesnt work out anymore .
i dont feel happy at all..

i'm just like, living YOUR life and not our's . shouldnt a relationship include both of us and not just one of them ? i dont understand .
why ? u make decision without telling me, yet i hav t follow u ?
and why not i make decisions and u follow me ?

i'm sick and tired of life and how i wished i could end everything nao.
it just hurt so much .
idw thing's t repeat like my past relationship.

but we're goinging t that way .

talking t you wont work out cause u wouldnt listen and u think that everything you've done is right .
you only want t go your way . that's why .

i dont know hat t do nao .
disappointed , pissed and sad nao .
i think it's time for us t be alone for a night or two .
t cool down and start everything afresh .

i'm really lost nao. and who knows ? no one could help . i'm alone nao again. dont know what's th next step. this feeling's so fucked up .
i really dont know what t do . i really dont know ...

Sch was as usual . Boring .
After sch slacked with vernce baby and Wilson .
I was surprised that bi can clicked up with my friends .
Happy too . U was sweet after that .
Was everything turned wrong again after Gg t west mall .

I hate th feeling when u left me out . Again and again .
Surpriesed that u called ur ex . And ask her t meet . I was totally pissed ,
U knew I didn't liked her . Why do u still do that ?
I don't wanna control u anymore . I only say I wanna go home first .
U can meet whoever u wNt . Dont need tell me .
I just don't want t bother . And I just don't want t be there .

Why are u always making decision without even asking my opinion ?
It's not th first time alr , y'know ?
Seriously .
I hate it . I hate this feeling . Sighs . I don't wanna control u anymore . Just that I don't want t be there ?!
And I don't want be left out again . Especially it's with girls . I hate it .

I'm very tired . I haven't been sleeping since last night . And I'm hungry and tired . Budd u kept ignorin me . Don't bother askig . Or whatever . I hate it . Sighs . No mood .

DAY 9 ; SOME ONE U WISH U COULD MEET.

SOMEONE U WISH YOU COULD MEET.

why all these subject is i dontknow how t write one hur ? :x
hmmm.
my raletives ? we've lost contacts for like 4-5 years alr.
i miss them :/
ok, DONE :x



baby's sleeping . and i cant sleep . going prepare t go sch in tweenty minutes time (:
i'm not tired :/ serious ! -.-

DAY 8 ; YOUR FAV INTERNET FRIEND

UR FAV INTERNET FRIEND.
hmmm, this is hard...
i dont really go for any internet friend. cause i believe they all hav a reason behind it. maybe good, maybe bad.
i donwan any bad things t happen so i dont really make any internet frieds (:

AHAHAH.


MEOW?
AWWWWWW, dont youh think it's kewt ? =3
i miss my cat ):
SIGHS.




i lyk her hairrrr !! ):

training's gonna start soon ! (:
yesterday first time go batok sin tua. wow. it's a good place t hav training (: very cool ! big space, no nid scare rain. (: (Y)
next week. hope t see lotslots pepo =3



i wanna hav t lip piercing too ! :X
i asked my boyfr t accompany me t repierce my tounge piercing & he told me he is scared of e pain -.- TSSK!!!

i'mm gonna end here alr. waiting for my idiotic boyfr call !. he's busy talking t his friends & ignoring me ): tssk !
AHAHAH. lastly, ILUVYOU ASSHOLE ♥

day 7; ex-boyfriend/ girlfriend/love/crush

who says your not perfect ?
who says your're not worth it ?
who says you're th only who's hurting ?
trust me,
that's th price of beauty.
who says you're not hansome?
who says you're not cute ? =3
WHO SAYS? ♥♥♥

SUBJECT: BOYFR ♥
my boyfr is a army boy? OBVIOUSLY .AHAHAH.
21 years this year.
we had been tgt for 8 months alr =3 i love him much (:
recently he hadnt been treating me like usual which i'm not used t it. -.-
i kept kaopeh-ing and it doesnt make a difference -.- DIAOS.
okay . shall stop here.
i love you very muchiie babe =3
HAPPY BELATED 8TH MONTH. counting down on our 1 year alr ! HEHEHEHEHEH.



KISSME♥

well.
i've just dont packing my boyfr's SUPER DUPER MESSY ROOM ):
i've spend 3 hours on his room. & i'm satisfied with it . th afford i paid off is worth it (: babe . u better not mess up th room again hor :@
if not u pack hurrrr ! (:
okay. my darling's booking in tmrw ):
and i'm gonna miss hym !♥
klah. i really gonna end here alr.
bye peeps (:

ps:// BABE ! U BETTER UPDATE UR BLOG :@ AHAHAHAHAH.